Not That Complicated

Thank you for hard stuff this year, God. It has certainly helped shift my paradigm and look at life differently. Thank you for staying so close to my side as I have walked through some of my darkest days. Thank you for letting the tears fall and the feelings come and giving me the presence of mind to experience them, as my nature is to run.  Thank you for giving my oldest son such broad shoulders and compassion for his mother.  I've cherished every moment we have shared over the past four months. Thank you for all of the special treasures Josh has left behind for me to find.  It has been so sweet and unexpected. Thank you for shining your light of truth on this horrible accident so that Josh's death couldn't be ignored or passed over as simply unfortunate. Thank you for the fall leaves and the eyes you've given me to see them and acknowledge you as Creator. Thank you for courage and strength. Thank you for unexpected new friendships born out o

Pain remains a constant companion even though it politely takes a back seat every now and then to let Joy drop in when your brother calls me or I’m face-timing with your nephew Nate. Laughter remain s the best medicine and God has graciously given me many opportunities to laugh and smile especially when I’m with those who know me so well. Autumn remains my favorite time of year, even though you won’t be hanging out in your Eno or hiking   trails with friends, snapping shots here and there to share with me later. Friendship remains , and I know your group misses you every day.  You brought so much to your relationships.  You would probably be a little surprised to see how much you really impacted people you encountered in your short life.  Twisted metal remains  behind the shed, what’s left of your pride and joy.  I am choosing to keep it for a time to just reminisce, reminding me how wrong and unnecessary it was for your life to end this way.  It’s my motivati