Not That Complicated

It was at sunset one evening and Josh was on his way out of the house.  "Mom, you gotta see this, it's incredible!" Before I could get up and get to the porch, he grabbed my phone and snapped this picture of a moth. It was large and unusual, It hung upside down on the roof of the porch.  I looked at it and said, "Thanks."  "I knew you would think it was cool." he said. I did think it was cool.   God's creation has always captivated my attention and imagination.  The colors, the shapes, the designs in nature just amaze me at God's generosity to his children who he has given eyes to see and a mind to appreciate the beauty that is everywhere.  I shared that with Josh.  I would look for opportunities to point out sunsets, cloud patterns,  birds in flight, anything and everything  in nature.  Have you ever noticed  how the highest leaves in a group of trees seem to be waving at God to get his attention.  Just an occasional ...

How is it that September is in full swing? My brain seems trapped in August. The days are hard right now, harder than in the beginning when Josh was killed.  I find I wake most mornings ready to cry. Fibromyalgia and pain in general seem magnified.  Sleep comes but doesn't seem to refresh me. Most of the day I skate by on auto pilot. I did start reading a book on surviving difficult times. It reminded me that God has allowed this and is surely able to get me through it. There is a song that has brought me peace these past couple of weeks. Even though I am heart broken, I know God planned ahead for this very moment.